Today's ultrasound showed the following:
Right: 10, 12, 11, 11, 11, 12
Left: 10, 8, 12, 10, 10
I asked what my E2 levels were this past Monday: 76. Wait, what?! After two days of stims on the same dose of Follistim, my E2 levels were up to 360 last time. This time I've added a vial of Menopur to the mix, so why is it so much lower?
And back up a minute. My lining is 5.2? Well, that's disappointing. But maybe it's too early? And I did just bleed a lot after stopping the pill. Maybe my ute just needed a good shedding.
I don't know why I feel so disappointed. I guess I just expected my response to be the same as the last time. I guess the follie count is about the same for this point. Perhaps a slow rise in E2 is better? I don't know.
What I do know is that today's appointment cast a huge shadow of doubt in my mind. What if my eggs are poor quality? What if we don't get enough to work with? What if they all die away and this doesn't work?
I need to distract my mind from all of this... HA. That's impossible. Ugh.