Friday, December 20, 2013

Over it.

Another FB pregnancy announcement. This one really hit me hard. Could it be the fact that they just got married a few months ago? Could it be that they're so young? Or could it simply be that I really will be the last one to get pregnant around here... if I ever become pregnant.

For the first time, I am having serious thoughts that it may not be in the cards for us. If we become pregnant... it will be a true miracle.

Why is this happening? What is so wrong about my genetic code that it needs to stop with me? Why is this so hard? Will there come a day when I can look back on all of this and say 'thank god it was all just a bad dream'?

I'm so very sick of all this. I actually feel sick to my stomach.... I have no idea how this is going to turn out. And that scares the shit out of me.


  1. I am thinking of you CC. It's all so hard :-( Sending you big hugs.

  2. I hate that you are going through this, CC. You are a strong amazing woman. Keep on fighting!

  3. It is completely frustrating, I know. I believe that you will be a mama. Hang in there - we are women, and we are amazing.

  4. Hugs to you! You are in my thoughts!

  5. So sorry you are going through this. I had the same experience the other day with a FB announcement of a young couple who JUST got married. It really stings no matter how much you think it won't. Sending you big ((hugs)).