Friday, September 13, 2013
All of the physical elements are coming together, but I wasn't prepared for the overwhelming flood of emotions. I thought I had dealt with it all and came to peace about all this, but the constant trickle of tears today tells me it runs deeper than I had thought.
I know it's impossible to control my emotions, but I wish I had a little more control over turning off the waterworks. I cried while walking the dogs. I cried while driving to my appointment. I cried while sitting in the waiting room. I cried while talking to the nurse before she drew my blood. I cried when I paid for my BCPs. That's a lot of crying to take place in less than three hours.
I don't really know what else to do but to keep moving forward. Even if each step leaves a trail of tears, at least I'm going somewhere.
Posted by RunDreamer at 9:56 AM