Sunday, September 8, 2013

Acceptance with Hope

Today is CD18, 8dpo of this cycle (TI+injects, IUI#4 canceled). I cannot believe that just a week and a half ago, I was in a very different place. Before IUI#4 was canceled, my head was a mess of anxiety, stress and 'what ifs.' The day that we were canceled, was one of my lowest points. And since then, I've worked through quite a lot and have found myself here: in a place where there is acceptance and hope.

I have accepted that this cycle will most likely be a bust, but still have hope that our happy news is coming soon. Knowing that IVF is our next step is comforting and overwhelming at the same time. It is overwhelming just like marathon training: if you think of the whole thing all at one time it is too much for your head to manage; it is best to take it one step at a time. Yet the thought is comforting because I believe we will get the results we've been looking for very soon.

For now, I am just moving right along. It will be what it will be, and no amount of mental energy will change that. So I accept and hope. And just keep going!

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