Friday, May 31, 2013

Cue the Mind Games!

I really can't complain about this 2WW. Patience is something that I'm not very good at, and I have to work hard to find patience when necessary. I've never really been the "Zen" type, so waiting makes me crazy.

But truly and honestly, up until yesterday I was sort of sailing through this 2WW. I couldn't believe that more than a week had already gone by. Have I been thinking about it nonstop? Of course! But I have been doing a good job of accepting the thought, thinking positively, then letting it go. Sometimes I've had to actually tell myself, "Find something to do! Distract yourself!" so I wouldn't dwell, but it's been working.

Then here we are today, 9 dpIUI. I woke up this morning to an elevated BBT and intriguing cramping. Ok, the higher temp isn't anything to get too excited about, but it's a good sign.

My Chart - notice the temp!
And as far as these cramps were concerned, I wasn't really sure what to make of them yet. They were so mild, it was almost like I was imagining them there.

As the day went on, the cramps started to become more present, but still like a distant echo. They were accompanied by the slightest hint of nausea. Add this to the breakouts from two days ago and the creamy CM, and suddenly my mind was running away from me!

Luckily, I was able to text a friend and she talked some sense into me :)

My friend is the best!
I made myself busy at work, and made it through the rest of the afternoon. Then when I got home, I was getting changed to go out for a bike ride. Suddenly, I noticed the most bizarre cramps on my right side. They were brief, and different from anything I'd ever noticed before. "Implantation cramping?!" Yes, my mind actually went there. That's how these mind games work! Pure evil. But the feeling passed after a few seconds, and I dismissed the thought. Get distracted. Go ride your bike.

So I'm going to continue distracting myself left and right up until 13 dpIUI, Tuesday, the day I take a HPT. 13 has always been a lucky number for me, and it's also CD27. I love 1's, 3's, and 7's because they've always been good numbers to me. 13 dpIUI, CD27, don't fail me now!! I'm hoping and praying and chanting and singing and doing every other ritual under the sun that I make it to my beta test on June 7th!!

2 comments:

  1. I so agree. I am only 6dpIUI and it's killing me! Of course I sometimes get cramps and I convinced it's my AF. I think it would be too early for me to see any signs...but why the mind games?!?!?!

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  2. Waaaaahhhhh!!! :'( I just re-read this post and it breaks my heart that I didn't even make it to test on my lucky day (13 dpIUI, CD 27). Sigh. Hopefully this new cycle will bring me to my lucky day (and a BFP)!!!!!

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