As you can imagine, it is impossible to train for a marathon with the limit of one hour a day. On average, it takes me about four hours to run 26.2 miles (PR is 3:42:54, woot woot!) so running the race itself is a violation of the doctor's orders. And the weeks and months leading up to a marathon, I'd usually dedicate at least two runs a week to run over the hour mark (one being a tempo run, the other a long run). So there goes that. No marathons while trying to get pregnant in a medicated cycle.
|Showing off my marathon medal from 03.17.13|
Part of the problem is that my MO is all or nothing. Whatever I'm doing, I'm either going to give it 110% or I'm just not going to participate. I'm a perfectionist... and may have a little OCD. In regards to running, I have learned from the past that if I'm not training for a marathon then I get really lazy. I know I can get away with running a 5K or even a half marathon with less than my best effort. So if I'm faced with the choice of getting my arse out there for a run or being lazy... Eh, it's ok to let this one slide... and the next one... and now I haven't run in three days... six days... OH MY GOD I have to run right now or I'm going to lose my mind!! I feel so guilty and ashamed when I get lazy and slack off. So it's just better when I'm training for a marathon, because I won't let myself skip out on that run just because I don't wanna.
So what do I do? How am I going to survive this marathon suspension? Ahhhh, I don't know!! I guess the part of this that makes it the most frustrating is knowing the odds of getting pregnant on this cycle. My doctor gave me a 20% success rate with my diagnosis and course of treatment. That means that there's an 80% chance that it won't work this time. That makes me frustrated for a lot of reasons (I want my take-home baby as soon as possible! I can't find the strength to be patient for months or years just to get knocked up), but in regards to the marathon-suspension-turned-me-into-a-couch-potato situation.... ARGH!!!!