Today is a first. We actually made it to the Day 5 Report. Dr. M. called us himself to deliver the news... which is not great, but not terrible either.
Out of the 5 embryos, 3 have arrested, and 2 are still growing. They are growing slowly, so we will not do a transfer tomorrow (which comes to me as no surprise). One is doing better than the other, and the other is "small with disorganized cells." Doc said that could mean the embryo is beginning to arrest, though we wouldn't know for sure until tomorrow.
Doc said he is hopeful that we will get one blast to freeze and do a FET in the future. He also said that he was surprised by how this cycle went after ER. He expected more eggs and more of them to be mature. To be honest, we are not surprised... the report he gave us is better news than we've ever gotten to this point. I am a bit disappointed that he is surprised by all this though.
The plan is to let our two embryos grow one more day and see how they do. Dr. M will call me tomorrow with the news. So we continue to be in limbo (which, again, is no surprise).
I said from the beginning, if we get one blastocyst it will be a miracle. We would be thrilled. That is still true. And as of that moment, there is still a chance for that to happen. Pleeeeeeeeeeease grow, embryos.
I have thought ahead a bit to figure out what we'd do if x, y or z happened. Actually...... I haven't thought about the option of no embryos too much because it's too hard. I'll deal with that if it becomes a reality. I'm trying to keep it all at bay for the next 24 hours and just believe in our two embryos.
Right now, I'm just so tired (poor sleep last night), and that's making it foggy. I'm going to try to get distracted again (which isn't working too well. I keep getting distracted from the distractions!!), and when my mind goes to our embryos, fill my head and heart with positive thoughts.