CD23, 8dpIUI, all the normal 2ww stuff. AF will be here mid week after the weekend. Life goes on.
I've been doing a lot of thinking, and John & I have been doing a bit of discussing in bits & pieces. His schedule this week is really busy with work, so we haven't had the time to sit down and really talk it out. It is our plan to have a date night tonight and spend some time hashing it all out (or as much as possible).
The biggest source of stress was the time crunch created by our next consultation and my period only a day after... it's too big of a decision to rush through just so we can get in on the next cycle. So we decided that we will wait out one more cycle before IVF #3. That gives us some time to think. We will probably do IUI #5 in the meantime, and hopefully have everything sorted out in time to start prepping for IVF #3 in March.
We have Consult #3 on Monday. I'm looking forward to finding out if that clinic is indeed a dead end for us. I hope it is not, but at least this time I am prepared for whatever they may say (and however they may say it).
After much hemming and hawing, I rescheduled Consult #4 so that we didn't have to miss more work. I asked if I could email our records, and they told me that the doctor wouldn't look at them before the appointment so just bring them with us... ummmmmm.... WHAT?! Big glaring red flag. We rescheduled for February 18th, but I'm thinking we will cancel the appointment. Seriously, don't waste my time!
I scheduled another consult for January 21st. This particular clinic was recommended to me by three people in the field. I'm not expecting them to be the answer, but figured why not go hear what they have to say.
So, by the time we decide on our next move, it seems that we will have consulted with four different doctors from three different clinics. I think we are doing our due diligence. I just hope that all of this will give us the confidence and clarity of mind so that we can go into IVF #3 with real hope.
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Plant your hope with good seeds,
Don't cover yourself with thistle and weeds,
Rain down, rain down on me.
I will hold on, I will hold on hope.
Having to wait is so hard but you guys are doing the right thing by taking the time to discuss things and make a decision you are confident in. I hope your date night goes well! ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteWaiting is the name of the game! Thanks for the well wishes :)
DeleteWhile waiting can be hard, I think it's a good decision to not rush into something before you've both really had a chance to think it all through and weigh your options, and most importantly, to make sure you're on the same page. I'm happy to hear it sounds like you two and doing a better job of communicating. You know I wish nothing but the very best for you, love you girl!! And to end with a Mumford quote - we were destined to be friends <3
ReplyDeleteAhh! I knew you'd pick up on the Mumford quote :)
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