Being on the bench for the past five months, I have completely repressed just how stressful infertility is. And it is stressful in every single way imaginable: physically, emotionally, socially...
I have been off the bench for a few days, and I'm already feeling completely overwhelmed by it all. There was even a moment over the weekend when I wished I was back on the bench! That's how I can tell that it's bad. I've wanted nothing more than to get moving for the past five months.
At this particular moment, it's the physical stress that is bothering me most. I woke up with a headache, and feeling nauseous and hungry. I blame the meds and low-carb diet. My body has to get with the program, and hopefully it'll figure it out quickly.
Emotionally, I am hoping that I can keep my stress level down to a minimum. We'll see. Infertility is stressful, and so is work, and life in general.
I'm going to push on. I'm thinking about all the plans I have for the day, and at first they make me groan, "How will I do it all when I feel like shit?" But maybe if I just get started, I'll get distracted from the discomfort I am feeling now.