Wednesday, July 30, 2014

20/60

20 days until Dr. KK Part I.

60 days until Dr. KK Part II.

When we first scheduled these appointments, they seemed like an eternity away. It's still pretty long of a wait until the follow up, but the countdowns are chipping away :)

I went on the pill a week and a half ago. I know that seems counterintuitive... why would you go on the pill if you're trying to conceive? My pharmacist gave me an inquisitive look when I filled the prescription and asked where the prenatal vitamins were in the same visit. Ha! I decided to go on the pill this cycle because I cannot have my period for my appointment in 20 days. After all of the IVF fun I've been through, my neat and tidy little 26 day cycles have gone rogue. The past two unmedicated cycles have been 31 days, which means that CD1 for this cycle would have probably been the day of my long-awaited-for appointment. No freaking way! So this chick got herself on the pill.

I have to say... it feels SO GOOD to know that there is absolutely no chance in hell that I could have a surprise miracle pregnancy right now. That might seem like a weird statement to read if you've been around this blog the past year. I want nothing more than to become pregnant, and I don't care how it happens. A surprise miracle... wow, I'd take it!!

But it's just so exhausting to go through a natural cycle knowing that our chances for success are 2-5%. I have never been a lucky person. I don't play the lottery, I don't gamble, I don't call into radio shows hoping to be the 100th caller for that awesome prize. Why not? Well, I have learned from the past that I am never the lucky one who wins unless the odds are seriously stacked in my favor. So you can imagine why I'm happy to take a break from my one in fifty odds this month.

So what have I been doing? Am I weeping in a corner while watching the clock tick down? Hell to the no freaking way!! I can't believe it, I don't know how, but I am enjoying my summer. Here's a few ways how:

  • Marathon training - 38 days until race day!!!! Which means four runs a week (including a weekly long run... this weekend is 20 MILES - holy shit, I'm a little scared!! But I know I can do it!), yoga, core & strength workouts, fuel & nutrition, running gear, and otherwise scheming with my Soley & Bestie, Rachel, on our next big run :)
  • Sleeping - I'm enjoying sleeping in most days (hooray for summer vacay!!), and it's a rare occurrence if I don't get my afternoon nap :)
  • Hanging out with friends & family - John & I have enjoyed lots of quality time together with our doggies. And my little sister just spent the past three days staying at our house. We had lots of great times!!
  • Home improvement projects - we've been working on the Fab Room for the past several weeks. It is shaping up so wonderfully!!! Paint and new baseboards are all done! It looks awesome!! We're working on furnishing the otherwise empty room. It's going to look AWESOME!!
  • Lots and lots and LOTS of relaxing :)
What have you all been up to? How's your summer??

11 comments:

  1. Great to hear you feeling so good CC :) Those appointments are getting closer and it sounds like you're enjoying the time in between. I'm seriously impressed by your running regime...I'm lucky to walk for 30 minutes on the treadmill at the moment. Most nights it's just crashing on the couch ;)

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    1. Thanks TTC :) I'm cracking up about crashing on the couch! I do that too! LOL!!

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  2. What time do you have your alarm set to remind you to take BC? And yes, if I were the tech or pharmacist, I would totally be sitting there like, "a doy, doy, doy" -- then I'd probably be doing some detective work and if s/he is a good pharmacist, she may understand your logically reasoning for taking BC. I'm over here making a detective series!!! HA!

    The summer has been great since I get to see you at least once if not more times a week, except last week since we did our own thing and then I had some Cici withdrawal going on. You are my drug of choice these days. And I am so looking forward to running 20 miles with you bc you make it go by so much faster. BTW, we still need to iron out our details. Are you going to Oink, Oink tonight? So, on a side note, there's this track that I can either run to -- but I'm not sure the rules of this track bc it's a high school track, OR I could drive to this track that is about 8 min. one way -- so that would be 16 min of wasted time... I'm not sure how far it is to run to as a WU and CD. Okay, sorry, I'm taking too much comment space up here. I'm just trying to figure out my speed workouts for the future when I become an elite runner. HAHAHAAH

    I love how your house is turning out to look. Since I was first there to the last time when we ran our hard 16 miles -- I was loving it. It's so comfy and homey. In fact, I would have like to pretend we were running 8 miles and then drove back to Warren.

    My summer's been okay. I really need some of your home improvement motivation. Work's been okay too -- no too crazy busy, but not too boring either. I can't complain about the weather too much. While we've had some scorching hot days, I feel like it's been breezier. Summer breeze makes me feel fine....

    Love you and see you soon Soley!!!

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    1. I forgot to say, 20/38/60 days!! 38 is LVM. Woah!!! But yes, I feel like the countdown is getting closer for both things. Thinking of you always.

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    2. Omg, we have to run together SOON! Look at that novel up there!! HELLO LADY!! This is MY blog!! LOLLLLL!!! J/k, I love you, Soleyyyyyyy!!!! Can't wait to take those 20 miles down with you! And, holy crap, did we just register for a marathon!??!?!?!?!?!

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  3. I am so glad to see this! I am thrilled to hear that you are in a positive mental space and that you are ENJOYING yourself!! 20 days to go!! Isn't it funny how quickly time actually goes by even when it feels like something is so far away? I am feeling that way lately too.
    And PS: You are going to KILL that 20 miles :-)

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    1. :) It's funny the way time passes for sure! I have to say that there was a long stretch of time where it seemed to stand still... or even go backwards. Ugh! But now that I've accepted it for what it is, time is finally moving along at a normal pace. Waiting still sucks though!!

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  4. I love this post, I love the tone of this post!! I'm so happy that you're enjoying your summer, hanging with friends and family and your dogs, living life! And way to go on your training, lady, I am beyond impressed! I have no doubt you'll nail that 20mile run this weekend, but that doesn't make me any less impressed! And sometimes it is amazing how, even while waiting, time can really fly by! <3

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    1. :) on the topic of time flying, well, read what I wrote to Chickin :) On the topic of running... YAYYYYYY!!!! I'm so happy to be back out there! Love you, lady!

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  5. I'm so happy to see that you're doing well. I love seeing pictures from all of the races you've completed so far - it's just so impressive to me. I'm so excited for your appointment and your next big race. FX that they both go really, really well <3

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    1. Thank you, Ana! It is all really exciting! I hope you and your bean are doing great!

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