There is no way to describe this pain. I am exposed, and there is no shelter. I begged God to take me today. The hurt in my heart is unbearable. He did not answer my prayer. Like so many prayers before, this one went unanswered.
Just when I think I have healed a little bit, something happens to rip away the scab. My wound is raw again, gushing.
Rosa's EDD is on Tuesday. I am unraveling because of this. Not that I had it together to begin with. I miss her. And I miss Robin. I miss my babies.
All I know of you CC is from your blog yet the pain you express cuts me to the core. I think because our journeys were so similar at the start then changed when you lost your precious babies. I am just so so sorry for your losses and for the intense and savage pain you must endure. I know your grief will not disappear but I hope each day gets easier on you and you feel the love that you have for your little ones as happy feelings rather than raw pain. I am so sorry xoxo
ReplyDeletei am so sorry that you are hurting. i wish that things worked out better yesterday so that I could have thrown punches in the air with you. I am sure one of us might have fallen -- but knowig you, it would be with such grace. I hope that you will heal in time and it won't hurt so much. Love you.
ReplyDeleteI think about you and J, Robin and Rosa every day. I am so sorry for the unimaginable heartache and grief. I love you, dear friend. Sending love and hugs ❤️
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