Here Goes Nothing!

I'm not really the bloggy type. At least, I never thought I was. But I've been reading some of the blogs written by the fabulous 3T ladies over at The Bump and I have been inspired. These women are simply amazing. The support and understanding that comes from this group is unlike any other. I have incredible friends and family who I cherish so much, but unless you've gone through a personal struggle with infertility yourself... it's not possible to understand it.

I would never wish the struggle of IF on anyone. There are days where I feel low... sad... alone... hopeless. And then recently, I found the 3T board. I can't begin to express how much it helps to know that there are other women going through the same struggles as me and yet they can remain graceful, positive, and hopeful. Not every moment - we all have our bad days - but somehow in this community we manage to boost each other up whenever hugs are needed, and when you're in need of a hug they come swarming in!

Like I said above, I am so fortunate to have some amazing friends and family who support me in real life. Just today I met with my two favorite running buddies, Rach & Kris. We are kindred spirits and just have a connection that cannot be put into words. We call ourselves "The Trinity" because the three of us look at running like a religion... and we're all a little goofy too :)

Today being Mother's Day is a tough one to swallow when you're dealing with IF. I thought running with the Trinity gals would be ok today because we're so sensitive and supportive of each other. When Kris pulled in, Rach & I met her at her car. I noticed flowers in the passenger seat and my heart sank. Rach is a mother and is pregnant with #2 due in September. I assumed that Kris would acknowledge Rach with at least a few words, but wasn't prepared to see a gift exchange. This is one of the main reasons why I skipped out on church today after all. I didn't want to deal with the pastor recognizing all the mothers and me just sit there with tears in my eyes.

Well, I had it all wrong. Kristina brought flowers for us BOTH. She brought me flowers too! I almost started to cry when she handed the orchids over to me. And I can't help but to smile when I look at them :) I am so incredibly lucky to have good friends who accept me the way I am and support me unconditionally.

Me & my Mocha with our new flowers :)

Well, that's all I'm going to say for now. I'm a talker, so this could go on and on :) We shall see if I can keep up with this. I've always been a dreamer of big dreams... so many good ideas, but not enough time for them all :)