Saying Goodbye

I wrote a letter to Ninja today to say goodbye. The nine weeks that we had our ninja were so special. I went to visit her at the clinic everyday. I would sit in the parking lot, playing music from my car stereo, doing my Circle+Bloom meditations, and talking to her. I always looked forward to our time each day, and it was truly the highlight of my day for those seven weeks before our transfer.

The view from my sunroof when I would visit Ninja & meditate

I was truly happy when Ninja was with us. I really believed that she would be our baby. I told her when I was driving home on beta day that I wouldn't be mad with her no matter what happened. I know she tried her best, and so did I. We all did.

I believe that her soul will come back to us again, and we will be happy once more. It might not be the way in which we imagined... I never in my wildest dreams thought that we'd get through three IVF cycles like this.

I love you, Ninja. I miss you. Please don't be mad at us for moving on. We will never forget you and hope to see you again soon in happier times.